MY EVIL TWIN ✝

  It is very unusual for me to wake up so early on a weekend.  I actually had 4 hours of sleep.  Four short freaking hours!  I tried and tried to go back to sleep but just couldn't.  For almost an hour, I was tossing and turning, turning and tossing, until I finally gave up.  

Sleeping has been an issue with me.  I am medically insomniac and I have sleep apnea.  Nothing could be worse than that.  I've been taking sleeping medications (not everynight) for over 7 years now.  I was first diagnosed with Sleeping Disorder in 2002 when I was stationed in Denver, Colorado.  I was initially prescribed a sleeping pill (I forgot the brand name) which didn't do shit but kept me wide awake no matter how sleepy I got because of its side effect.  The pill made my skin overly sensitive.  I could not lie down because when my body/skin touched the sheets, I would go ballistic.   So, for one straight week, I was a very wide awake-sleepy and exhausted zombie.  I went back to my therapist and she changed the prescription to Lunesta.  It worked but I had to psyche myself up to sleep.  Then, when I transferred to Greece, the Hospital Corpsman Chief changed my prescription to Ambien CR.  Now, THAT really worked. I used it on nights when my insomnia attacked me the worst!  The only "not good" thing about it is that I have to make sure that I would have at least 8 hours of sleep every night otherwise, I could have some scary side effects such as getting up, driving, going to work while I was still medically asleep.  I've read articles about people who either died or injured themselves while under medication with Ambien.  There were even lawsuits filed against the pharmaceutical company.  So, to avoid that, I would take it half an hour before 10 p.m. in order to have enough sleeping time before my 5:30 a.m. wake up call.   The sleep apnea diagnosis didn't surface until November 2007.  I was given a machine to wear to help me breathe while asleep, but the machine is so cumbersome, to say the least.  The maintenance is even more taxing.  So, I stopped wearing it.   

I accomplished so little this Saturday.  I spent majority of the day on the computer and watching tv.  I did vacuum a little and tidied up the place, but am living most of the major housework for Sunday.  I finally got the boost to work out, so I went to the gym around 5 pm and worked out until 8 p.m.  I  got home around 8:45 p.m. and had some pasta with capers and green olives for dinner.  

With a decent work out, awesome long warm shower and relatively so-so dinner, I am expecting to be able to sleep longer tonight so I can have the energy to do the household chores tomorrow, and do some school work. 

WORTHLESS RAMBLING OF THE DAY:  I never knew maintaining a blog could be a little whelming.  Although I have so much to say, constructing and prioritizing what I want to say is another thing. Remember the voices in my head (wink, wink)?.  They, too, have things to say and it gets confusing sometimes when I think and they all talk at the same time.   :)

Seriously though, I may have to temporarily do a weekly blog instead of a daily journal until my Greek school is over, but you never know when my chatty evil twin comes out of hiding.  He gets and does this regular intellectual and opinion hibernations.  But once his thinking engines are oiled and warmed up, there's no stopping him.  He can talk and write for hours on end.  He can write mini novels in one sitting, and expound a single topic into a multi-layered, three dimensional points of discussions and multi-faceted objectivity, with little doses of subjectivity here and there.   

What makes him evil? well, he gets obnoxious and annoying sometimes, brutally frank even,  outright honest and straightforward to a point of near rudeness.   Aside from that, I say, just wait and see until you actually hear from him, then make your own assessments and judgments.